Drama

Today I had a wonderful day out with my sister. We spent the day shopping, and relaxing on the beach. As I sit here reflecting on my day, I come to the sobering realization that today almost didn't happen.

To say our relationship has been strained is an understatement. It has been hell. We are 9 years apart, and too much alike in all the wrong ways, and yet so different in other ways. When growing up I could care less about her existence, I was too busy worrying about playing with my friends. Then I moved into my dramatic teenage years and I was too busy in my own world to care about her. When all she wanted to do was follow me and spend time with me, and I could care less. All of this I can now say I regret, maybe if I had been different toward her then, things could of been different between us. As she grew up she tried coming into her own, make her own way in this world, like I was doing. Unfortunately her way was nowhere near what my way was and she made some big and small mistakes, mistakes that have been a great source of strain on our relationship. Our fights are legendary. She being young, thinking she had all the answers, and me being an angry, negative person, well lets just say we were oil and water!!

As I got older, I started to think about the things that are important to me. I started to realize that although I have strong passions and a fighting drive in me, I don't need to fight all the time. I learn that sometimes people need to make mistakes, after all its how we all learn and grow as individuals.I learned that I don't have all the answers and that I cannot fix the world. And do you know what I discovered? That if you walk around with negative energy, you will live a negative life. There will always be conflict and misery in your life. The best answer to this is to let it go.

Let the drama go!

By letting the drama of my preconceived idea's go, I have learned to except my sister for who she is, flaws and all. I have learned to be a shoulder when she needs it, not a forceful hand I think she should have. I have learned that someday with support and understanding she will pull through and be all that she can be. I learn that I too have made mistakes and I ask for patients that maybe I should grant her patients. I learned that I am a happier person when I don't walk around with negative energy, and holding grudges. All this lead me to today.

Today I had a wonderful day out with my sister. Although we don't see eye to eye on a lot of things, we have learned to just let our differences go. We may not always succeed, but we try really hard. After all we only have one family, and like it or not we are stuck together forever.

Let the drama go and you will see how much happier a person you can be, and then there will be no stopping you now...